Larmie Dane Barton

IN A BABY CASTLE

In a baby castle, just beyond my eye
My baby plays with angel toys that money cannot buy.
Who am I to wish him back into this world of strife?
No, play on my baby, you have eternal life.
At night when all is silent and sleep forsakes my eyes,
I'll hear his tiny footsteps come running to my side.
His little hands caress me so tenderly and sweet,
I'll breathe a prayer and close my eyes and embrace him in my sleep.
No, I have a treasure I rate above all other,
I have known true glory~I am still his mother.

Dave Hirst October 19, 2008

A 'Still' Mother

My child is gone

I hardly remember

Him coming

A moment in time

That was both

The longest

And shortest

Of my life.

Anticipation

Devastation

And now

Reclamation.

Putting the pieces

Of my soul

In semblance

Of order.

Time to go on

Time to get on

With life

With love

With a hole

In my heart

But with joy

For that moment.

I am Larmie's mother

A blessed gift

Through whom I have learned

I can love deeply

That which I cannot hold

Except in my heart

Knowing I am forever his mother.

Deeon Barton (Mom) October 19, 2008

I am not a fetus

Medical waste,

of no account

to be discarded

life's flotsam and jetsam

a ganglion of cells.

Had I taken a breath

made a whimper

had a beating heart

or moved a limb

I would have been counted.

Never mind that I have a name

that I heard my parents sing

that I am the sum total

of their genes

their child.

I didn't matter

I went to sleep

a sleep from which

I shall nevermore awaken

eternally.

I hear them call to me

in the stillness of the night

when they do not sleep

why, why, why

they plead.

I am not a fetus

I am a baby

formed

perfect

still.

Deeon Barton (Mom) October 19, 2008

Don't Lean On Me

Don't lean on me,

I'm just a straw in the wind.

I'm not support,

I cannnot stand alone.

Time heals they say,

But it also erodes,

Sand, wind, and water

Carve mystical shapes.

I am less now than I was,

when life was in the offing,

when joy filled my days

and dreams my nights.

My future is past,

A lonely road to follow,

awaits me,

beyond the garden wall.

He is still

and so am I.

My heart is muted,

its beat a dirge.

Days from night,

no longer discerned.

Sweet and sour,

taste alike.

Don't lean on me,

I cannot stand alone.

But lie here beside me,

and await the light.

Deeon Barton (Mom) October 19, 2008

Coping out is a cop out

Easy for me to say.

I'm a woman,

Women move on,

Women are strong.

Women don't cry,

This one does.

I also rage.

Against the darkness,

the fading of the light,

the loss of my future.

Indifference,

Apathy,

Futility.

I don't want to be well adjusted.

I don't want to be accepting,

I don't want to be healed.

When healing is to be freed of feeling.

Surcease.

I want to fight,

the invisible enemy,

that came in the night

and robbed us of our light.

Larmie

Son, precious child of mine

whose lifeless form I held

once upon a time

too briefly.

Deeon Barton (Mom) October 19, 2008

I'm not over it yet

I never will reach Nirvana

that place where pain is not permitted

where memories fade

where light suffuses.

Why would I want to

surrender memories

that define me

happy ones

sad ones

mine.

If I lost an arm

would you ask me

if I were over it yet?

Would you be surprised

to learn there are times

I reach out to scratch it.

Why then am I not

expected

permitted

encouraged

to remember what is gone

what once was a part of me.

My child is still

and I am sad

The future is not

what once was

Everything has changed

But I am constant.

Love,

Mommy

Deeon Barton (Mom) October 19, 2008

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Jodie-Leigh Blackburn October 18, 2008

Hello Babyboy,

Its mommy. I just wanted to let you know that i was thinking about you. You are a big boy now. I miss you so much like you would not believe. You are such a preious little angel. We love you so much as well. You big sister misses you as well. She talks about you alot just like i do. Your little brother doesn't really know you but he understands enough and he really misses you as well. I love you son! Talk to you really soon!

Love you lots,

Mommy (Deeon)

Deeon Barton (Mom) October 18, 2008

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Little did we know that morning
God was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
in death we do the same.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
But you did not go alone.
For part of us went with you,
The day God called you home.
You left us peaceful memories,
Your love is still our guide.
And though we cannot see you,
You are always by our side.
Our family chain is broken
And nothing seems the same.
But as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

Thoughts Today Memories Forever
Angela(Christopher-John Rowe)Mum


Have A Good Weekend

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Marie-Angela Rowe October 17, 2008

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Take a moment of your day
To maybe sit and in your mind
Think of all the precious babies
Yours, theirs and mine

Those whose short lives were over
Before they had really ever begun
Those precious little bundles
Who have made us all a Mum

Their tiny lives have touched us all
And what I want to say
They have brought us all together
Each and every day

The babies whose beautiful faces
In our minds forever will be
Whose names are etched within our hearts
For anyone, the whole world to see

The babies who touched our lives
Who we think of through our tears
I hope in time we will be able to smile
When we remember them through the years

So this week while we remember
All our babies who had to go
We shall show the world we are united
And how we love and miss them so

Michelle Snowdon Ciaran'S Mummy (GTS Friend) October 15, 2008